Goodness, today was just one of those days! I'm sure you know what I mean by that, right? It was a day when I had more problems than I had solutions for, more to do than hours in the day, more challenges than I had emotional bandwidth to deal with…one of those days. So, what do you do with yourself when these days happen? I feel like it's different for me every time. Today though, I was able to go for a walk with a sweet friend (which always nourishes my heart) and then came home, made something to eat and afterwards, cried. Yup, I just cried. I cried because my heart was overfull and needed a release. I cried because I could acutely feel the tension between having a heart full of so many dreams and not having seen them come to pass yet. I cried because I could see all of what was demanding my attention and I didn’t know how it was all going to come together. I cried because even though I am always learning, today I just felt like I was failing. So, I cried.

Then, I stopped crying and went about doing some of the things that were on my to do list…because none of those things were going to get done just by crying. Animals still needed to get fed, laundry still needed to be washed, groceries needed to be bought and errands needed to get run. So, I did that and it was ok. My heart still feels heavy and I still don’t have everything resolved, but I do know that for every problem there is a solution and even if I haven't found it yet, it's there.

Another thing I did was to be intentional about doing a few small things that nurtured me. I treated myself to a favorite drink at a local coffee shop while I ran errands, I took extra time to love on my kids and hugged them a little longer than I normally would. I made sure to eat a good dinner and put fresh sheets on my bed for when I go to sleep tonight. Small, but very tangible things that do make a difference for me. Most importantly though, I chose not to take all of what was wrong with today as being something wrong with me.  That can make all the difference on days like today. If we can make the conscious choice to not label ourselves or create our identity by our circumstances, it makes a difference in our ability to recover.  Circumstances are always changing, for good, bad or indifferent. But who we are, our identity, does not have to be shaken by them.

So, tomorrow is another day and I'm choosing to look forward to it.

Grateful for tomorrow,

Tove